@ Face[book]

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@ Face[book]: This has been on my mind for a while. Facebook has totally changed my life. It's part shrine, part totem, part communion, part vanity. What's funny is that there are so many focused, amazing people that I know who refer to the changes in their facebook status updates like they are the focal point of their day. What's also funny is, at times, I am one of these people.

Here's the thing: We don't do it in person. We're not necessarily attention starved, we tend to be very busy individuals with plenty on our to-do lists. Nonetheless, our FB updates and uploads are a focal point of our day.

I remember a time when I didn't have an e-mail address or even a cell phone. I graduated high school having only used my e-mail sparingly. By the time I started school in 2001, I was just getting more comfortable using the computer and frequenting my email (since this seemed like a more popular mode of communication).

By the time I started Facebook, it was awesome. I got a chance to connect with people that I might not see or hear from otherwise. But I also gained an opportunity to indulge in some self-affirmation too. A lot of it. At first, it was innocent...a mobile upload here, a comment there. But now, now its just as routine as checking my e-mail. My status updates? Hopefully profound quotes that will go down in the history of me-isms.

A shrine, indeed. To myself but also to others: family, friends and various inspirations.

Not long ago I contemplated deleting my page. I still think it might be necessary but something also makes me think I'd be losing my connection to other people, artificial or otherwise.

I'm thinking Facebook is more like online reality show. I get to observe the interesting happenings in the lives of those around me. During the wee hours of the morning, In a car ride after Live From Planet Earth in Brooklyn, we laughed and joked about the nuances of Facebook. The constant changes and the little things we get to observe.

Some of the most brilliant people that I know still mention their Facebook updates in conversation: "Yeah, because like on my Facebook status I wrote...did you see it?" As though missing these anecdotes means I missed some profound aspect of their existence. And maybe I did, who knows.

Either way, the fact that so much focus and energy is put into these musings, comments on the pages of others, relationship status and the like is definitely a phenomenon in and of itself.

I'm not sure what it all means but I can admit that I continue to divulge unnecessary information, share personal experiences with the whole wide web, and peek nosily into the life and times of many distant associates who are my Facebook friends.