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/////"Y'all know how I feel about performing. You know I don't like to do it." She later continues, "I started to see that towards the end, I started to feel that I gave more than I would ever get... I didn't want to stop being me... I didn't want to let hip-hop or them change me so I had to walk away."/////
Check out the short (17 min) film where that conversation and more are captured. It's called The Revival and is directed by one of Detroit's upcoming emcees, Invincible.
Bahamadia later says, "that's what I thought hip-hop was, you supposed to be yourself, you know I'm a single mom, I ain't never lied about my age, none of that. So when that sexy thing came out it sorta overshadowed it, but I don't wanna say it overshadowed it, it just kinda gave me another course to take... I felt like I gave so much of my life to the game, it started taking so much out of me and I didn't have nobody to talk to. And we probably were always there and could have been there as females in the industry -- a support group or something. But it was always a divide. It was always a group of males in the background whispering in your ear keeping it separated."
Roxanne Shante even admits, "I find myself supportive of female emcees now, I'm not gonna sit here and say I always felt that way because I'm sure from my past history of records you can tell it wasn't always that situation... this has been an eye-opening and spiritual experience. Unlike what people would think, there is no quarreling, we actually have just bonded immediately as a family and we literally live as sisters do."
And by the end of the short film Bahamadia's giving testimony to her own revival thanks to experiencing witnesses communally testify to her the role she has played in their lives:
/////"I realized that I wasn't by myself, that everybody in the industry is not competitive like that, and there are some people that wish the very best for you. And there are some people that are true to their word. There are some people that get the picture that it's strength in numbers, and are willing to get on the same plane with you and pool they resources together so y'all all can break bread fairly and justly. When I saw that with Stacy [Epps] I really felt humbled, even though I'm older than y'all and been in the industry longer. At that point I felt that it was still some hope for me and it inspired me to continue on."/////